เพลง Going Through Changes (Explicit)

Going Through Changes - Eminem

I'm going through changes

I'm going through changes

Lately I really, feel like

I'm rolling for delph like Philly,

I feel like I'm losing control of myself,

I sincerely,

I apologize if all that I sound like

is I'm complaining,

But life keeps on complicating

an' I'm debating,

On leaving this world, this evening

even my girls,

Can see I'm grievin', I try and hide it

But I can't

why do I act like I'm all high and mighty,

When inside, I'm dying

I am finally realizing I need help.

I can't do it by myself, too weak

2 weeks I've been having ups and downs,

Going through peaks and valleys

dilly dallying,

Around with the idea

of ending the shit right here.

I'm hatin' my reflection

I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors,

I can't stand what I look like, yeah

I look fat, but what do I care?

I give a fuck, only thing I fear, is Hailie,

I'm afraid if I close my eyes I might see her,

Shit..

I'm going through changes

I'm going through changes

I lock myself in the bedroom

bathroom, nappin' at noon,

Yeah dad's in a bad mood

he's always snappin' at you.

Marshall what happened at you

you can't stop with these pills,

And you've fallen off with your skills

and your own fans are laughin' at you.

It become a problem

you're too pussy to tackle, get up,

Be a man, stand

a real man woulda had this shit handled.

Know you just had your heart

ripped out and crushed,

They say Proof just flipped out

homie just swift out and bust,

Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that

He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at

no-body, he fights first,

But dwellin' on it only

makes the night worse,

Now I'm poppin Vic's

perks and Methadone pills.

Yeah Em, tight verse, you killed it,

Fuckin' drug dealers hang

around me like "yes man",

And they gon' do whatever I says when

I says it

It's in their best interest to

protect their investment.

And I just lost my fuckin' best friend

so fuck it, I guess then

I'm going through changes

Don't know what I'm going through

but I just keep on going through changes

My friends just can't understand this new me,

That's understandable man

but just think how bananas you'd be,

You'd be an animal too

if you were trapped in this fame

and caged in it like a zoo.

And everybody's lookin' at you

what you want me to do,

I'm startin' to live like a recluse

and the truth is,

Fame startin' to give me an excuse

to be at a all time low.

I sit alone in my home theatre

watchin' the same damn DVD,

Of the first tour, the last tour

he was still alive.

And it hurt sore, fast forward, sleepin'

pills'll make me feel alright.

And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night,

I just take a couple more

yeah you're motherfuckin' right,

I ain't slowin' down for no one

I am almost homeward bound.

Almost in a coma, yeah homie come on

don't look now,

Daddy, don't you die on me, daddy

better hold your ground.

Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice,

Yeah baby hold me down.

I'm going through changes

I'm going through changes

Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes

plus somehow I'm pullin' through.

Swear when I come back

I'm a be bulletproof.

I'm a do it just for Proof

I think I should state a few,

Facts, cause I may not get

a chance again to say the truth.

Shit it just hit me that what

if I would notta made it through

I think about the things

I would never got to say to you,

I'd never get to make it right

so here's what I came to do.

Hailie this one is for you

Whitney and Alaina too,

I still love your mother

that'll never change,

Think about her every day

we just could never get it together.

Hey, wish there was a better way

for me to say it,

But I swear on everything

I'd do anything for her on anyday.

There are just too many things

to explain, when it rains,

Guess it pours, yes it does

wish there wasn't any pain.

But I can't pretend there ain't

I ain't placin' any blame,

I ain't pointin' fingers

heaven knows there never been a saint.

I know it just feels like

we just pissed away our history,

But just today

I looked at your picture

almost hate to say,

I miss you self consciously

wish it didn't end this way.

But I just had to get away

don't know why

I don't know what else to say, I guess

I'm going through changes

I'm going through changes